Adoption Stuff

There is a girl in the Texas foster care system we have been eyeing since October. Last week we submitted our home study for her. Today we heard from her case worker and she sent over some files on this 16 year old and requested more info on us. It was so sad. Unfortunately, she would not be a good fit for our family and we have to reply back that we are not interested in pursuing it any further. This is so hard!!!!!

Our home study is also submitted on a young man, 17, who is a christian and desires to live with a godly family. Our case worker raves about him. We are a little late to jump in on this one, but we will try. We did not think we were interested in a boy, but after hearing about him we decided to at least make an attempt. We doubt it will lead to anything.

Tomorrow we sign final papers. I am not even sure what they are, but we will go to the agency we are using and sign stuff and then wait some more. I didn't expect this part to be so hard. I feel horrible that we have to say no to this child and I am sad that we probably are too late to pursue the boy we heard about. I need to pull away and pray and get back to the place of knowing God has already decided what child we will get and no one and no thing and no timing can change that. I wanted to just pick one and have them home with us soon, even though we have been told it doesn't go that way. I did not want to have to read horrible things that have occurred in a child's life and then say we can't do it. Seeing the effects of sin on a child is hard. If you are a young person and your mom and dad loved God and loved you and tried hard to do a good job parenting, I encourage you to thank God for that daily and don't critique your parents' shortcomings, it could have been so much worse. Just read one CPS file, you will never be the same.